Dear Childs and Love
Thank you for spending time reading my testimony on believing in Christ. So let’s start my story
Before I meet Christ – When I was child and teenage years.
How much can we remember our childhood? Not much but have certain memories like going to kindergarten. The first day of school, it wasn’t my parent who sent me. It is a friend of my dad who sent me. I was alone and my language? Just one, my mother tongue Hakka. I cried for 1 week but when went home, I never mention about it. I know who is my 1st friend because I am introvert. Slowly, I made a lot of friends. I will bring the toys that my mom’s babysitting kids forgot to bring back home to kindergarten. Haha. So let’s go into main point.
I am from a Buddhist family. So when I was kid, I always went to the temple early in the money around 5am to put incense and fruit offering on the idol deities around the temple. Each idol has its own position/rank, so you need to put each of the offerings according to a certain order. I am not sure why, it is a must. Of Course, Going to the temple is once a month and I think is on the 15th day of the month because I see the full moon when went to the temple. It is never a feeling of peace and joy in your heart when you pray for them. It is like a custom or practice that you must do as a Buddhist. Maybe I am not that devoted yet. We pray what we want and not the deities. If the prayer was heard, then it was good, to continue seeking another agenda. Never do I know about Christianity except in school books. Want to learn more? No interest! Some more, my Christian friends just don’t bother to share Good News but say doom days coming when it is dark cloudy, or raining days. I am a very weak kid and easily fell sick. I can be sick on Friday after school till Sunday, Monday go to school and sick on Friday. I cough for more than 5 years, so I can’t eat fried foods or drink cold water. I drink Chinese traditional medicinal herbs which are very bitter until they become like drinking water. It was only when I was 10 years old and started going out and playing with my neighbors, my health got better and better. How about sins I have done? Greed, pride, lust, gluttony, wrath, sloth, and envy <– none of these I didn’t commit. Confirm done.
Once in a while at night, I always think “what happens when I die?” “where will I go?” “Heaven or Hell?” “Do I make a lot of good deeds?” and I cried because I so scared. I tried not to think and sleep. And ya, next day continue my life. So nothing particular about Christianity in my life from kid to teenager triggered me to know more about Christ.
Before I meet Christ – When I meet her
Form 6, is where I meet my maiden, the first impression I have of her is her beautiful smile. She is kind, honest, caring, and melts my heart. So we begin our relationship as friends and then move on as girlfriend and fiance to my wife. Although the words presented look short, it took 7 years before we married. Our relationship just like other, got waveform, up down up down. My wife is the one who introduce me to Christianity and I went to church for Sunday Service. During this period, my wife told me once that she has a wish that is having matrimony in Church. Time passes and we have long-distance relationships when we go further studies (4 years + 1 year). I can’t remember if I took a pledge. I remember one Saturday night I commit a sin and guilt, so I pray to God for forgiveness as I going to redeem my sins by doing more good deeds. The following day, I went to Sunday service, Rev. Ling Man Hsi, to deliver her sermon on the sin that I commit. I totally shock and amazed that in 2009, I was invited to go for the baptist course and I agreed. I still think that the main reason is to marry my wife in church. So, I was baptist in 2009. But do I really walk like little Jesus? Of course, not really. Yes, I am Christian, just a fake Christian, I know Jesus, and I know how to apply His Words to people but not in me. I never put Him as my center. I am still a self-center person. I went to church and serve Him (that’s why I say I am fake Christian) as a duty not because I understand about Him. I committed sins like a routine. The worst is when the pandemic happen in 2019 and lockdown in Malaysia 2020. All the Sunday services become online and we stay. I totally enjoyed it. How terrible I am. I totally left Him till one day
I finally meet Christ – Breakthrough Camp
In 2022, my friend/partner invited me to join Breakthrough Camp but I feel reluctant because I want to spend time with my kids during that public holiday. Nevertheless, God works on him that find my wife for permission to let me go to the camp and he done the payment. I thought it will be normal like other Christian camp but I was wrong. There is a pre-camp that wants us to have daily devotion for a week before the camp start. The breakthrough camp is only for brothers in Christ and it only talks about brothers’ problems. I wouldn’t leak much inside stuff because it is too privacy but I can say I cried from 1st day till end (3 days camp) not because I enjoyed the camp, it is because I finally understand the God’s love on us. I can’t express the amazing love. I hope you will one day be able to receive the love too. You will feel peace and joy but bear in mind that once you out of the world again, you need to pursue the feeling again.
After meet Christ – my life
My journey to Christian just started now. I just start pursuing his Wisdom through reading Bible & spiritual growth books, daily devotions, and praying. So please pray for me on pursuing his Wisdom and be a little Christ. I am weak but He is strong, I am nothing but He is everything. Hopefully, I can start my Bible Study today. Oh ya, before I end, I feel peace and joy when I stay in His Shelter. I know where I am now and where I am when I left this world. My Last Question to you all (Is from the breakthrough speaker) “When Jesus comes to you and says “Where are you?” (Genesis 3: 9), are you ready by standing there and saying “I, [Name], am here” or do you hide like Adam& Eve when God knows where they are”.
Now as a Christian, I walk a path of faith every day—immersing myself in the Bible and devoting time to prayer—even though I still stumble and commit sins. Each misstep is a reminder of my human frailty and a chance to lean more fully on God’s grace. I continue to learn and grow, understanding that true holiness isn’t something I achieve on my own, but a gift bestowed by God’s love and mercy. In this journey, I remain nothing without His blessing, constantly humbled and inspired to improve.
JOSIAH Miri 